The Blog

I´m creating this blog with a few goals in mind. This is, to some degree, a selfish act. But even so, I want to focus more on you and less on me. Although I will spend a lot of time repeating my stories and perspective, I have you in mind. After all, my experience is that, whatever I have to say is based on.

• I intend to create a platform that focuses on depression and related topics without the usual posifying and self-gaslighting. I want to invest some energy into looking at those topics with sober eyes. I believe that there’s a lot of false viewing regarding those so important and sensitive topics, that really doesn’t benefit anybody at all.
• To give people in dificult situations the feeling and assurance that they are not alone. Sure, many know that, and even more couldn’t care less. But I do this for this one lost soul that actually needed to hear what is said here. Perhaps there is someone out there that can strangely relate to my persona/stories and simply gets uplifted by knowing others have the same struggle.
• Create a platform for critical and progressive thinking about depression and related topics. Perhaps together, with combined efforts, we will be able to create something useful to someone.
• I want to get it off my chest. I just feel like telling my struggle, even if nobody cares or listens.
• Explore and work out myself, simply in a direction that I believe might benefit me.
• Document the efforts of someone trying to fight depression as good as possible. Perhaps winning, perhaps failing. Even if it ends in death, this kind of documentation/story might be full of teachings and mistakes for someone else to learn from. Perhaps I fail, but you see my mistake so clearly, being able to help yourself.
  

The Autor

Because of the nature of this blog, I prefer to remain anonymous. I share very personal stories and insights, things I haven’t even told those closest to me. Not that I still have friends, but I wouldnt want my mother or ex to read this. It’s also much easier to share ideas or discuss topics like suicide when one remains anonymous.

Yet, I can share a few details: I live in Europe, in a so-called “first world” country. I’m male, born around the year 2000. I have spent years abroad in South America.

I was raised by a single mother. She was all the family I ever had. Technically I have a brother, but really, I never truly did.

Financially I was quiete restricted and still am. At that point I have to thank my mother for working as hard as she did and making it possible that we had vacations in other countries and thus seing other facades of life early on.

Currently, I run an AI-based business. It collects and processes data, bundles it, and sells it as a service. Additionally, the network softwares used for these processes are offered separately, targeting businesses that require live data fetching and handling. This is my first real business, but I’ve been trying to “make it” since I was about 12 years old.

English is not my native tongue.

Selfie I took at the Cataratas de Iguazú